simplicity.

Sometimes the simple can mean the most, it really is the little things that makes life count. I was reminded of that this week when I actually got to thinking and sitting down and just simply being able to breathe. Opportunity is usual around the corner waiting its up to you wether or not you take that leap of faith. I have fallen into the victim of new i'm enjoying its perks but i'm dreading the repetition of what new becomes after a while old...and kind of the same.

lust.

Q&A

I finally got around to answering some questions ill try to get to more later if you didnt post a name with your question i'll post your blog name :)

Mrlikeaboss said: Where are you from your a beautiful lady whats your background?

(blushing) thank you kindly:) I'm from Seattle born and raised my ethnicity is Fijian.

Furiouso said: I heart you and vivid notion...not a question lol

Thanks love, I heart you back! funny I always tell my friends I heart them I thought I was the only one who used that expression:)

Lindsay said: Hiyaaa! on your very first post you said you share this blog with your best friend how come she never posts, and what happen to the guy who use to post things on here too?

Hello boo! she just never got around to it and my brother he's a bit of a slacker lol

MissDope said: You should do a makeup tutorial your pictures always look flawless

thank you thats very sweet, I think yess! possibly in the future.

KushKandy said: You know the owner of the business link you posted to DayandNightInc.?

Yes sweetie we know each other very well

Jake said: By the was you put your words, you seem like a smart woman do you have an higher level of education besides like high school?

aww shmankss:) Yes currently i'm attending university to complete a degree in dental.

Umrvnie said: Were you friends with your ex before you started dating?

He was friends with me.

Eriza said: HIIIIIIIII I love your blog, I like how you do your own thing i dont trust females so how do you do it do you prefer big groups of people or close couples?

thank you thank you :D I have a close couple friends that I hang with and I trust with everything thats just how I do it.

Oblivion said: I love the pictures you post you should put more up and do you have twitter,instagram or tumblr?

thank you darling:) yes,yes and no.

Sissy210 said: Are you rich you go on all these trips everywhere what do you do I wanna be young rich and travel too

Everything I want.

Trynnabequeens said: You inspire me so much I havent quite figured out why,keep on hustling girlie:) and please check out my blog please follow me!

You made my heart smile beautiful! I will

I have ignored all the other posts from anonymous people because for one they usually have something negative to say because there to coward to come out and say it with there actually name and this is a prime example why

Anonymous said: Have you ever wondered why you need so much attention? Do you think its because of you"ex-boyfriend issues" with you being a whore and all...Taking pictures alone and posting them on your blog is weird only because you post them and then seem to take yourself seriously afterwards. Do you do that just for the heck of it honestly or is it because the people who admire your online persona are than able to provide more attention to your whining rant about loving yourself when you obviously don't cause you post shit for the whole world to see your just fake.

Its obviously not me who has a problem in this situation...WHY ARE YOU WATCHING ME?!?!?!!? let me ask YOU since I have no idea who you are but seem to know me so well,you're stating 'I crave attention", and I also love the fact you threw " ex bf issues" there, either way that was a lucky guess or you must've really done your research, i'm gonna go with option 2

LMAO weird I take pictures of myself and try to take myself seriously,its people like you who will continually try to break people down because your unhappy with yourself, what about you? what do you like to do, STALK ME! no one online "admires me," if they make themselves known to me, has it occurred to you I compliment them back and enjoy reading others posts too from tweets and blogs. Its either you see the good in people or you don't, looks to me your my only admirer here.

 go deal with whatever it is I supposedly did to you, and stop taking it out on me, i'll pray for you tonight.

Jane asked: Do you style you hair with heat everyday?

I really try not to most days I just go natural 

Thank you guys soo much!

so lately i've been getting alot of emails asking why I haven't updated, or even for my advice and questions! This makes me happy for alot of different reasons thanks for supporting my thoughts and I feel great that people actually read my blog, and tell me there inspired by it,its very sweet:) so you have the opportunity to ask me questions and by the end of next week I'll post them up with answers thanks guys!

oxoxRanita

spring.

Everyone looks forward to the spring, fresh new relationships tend to bloom in the spring to carry out and be summer romances and if your lucky that love affair last thru the winter and sometimes forever. 

I miss the excitement and fresh feeling that new brings, that feeling you get in your stomach of butterflies, everything just seems more beautiful. Your happy, you just cant explain it. Whats even best  is when the feelings mutual, new love is one of the more glorious things, you start all over with someone different, you relearn and try to undo things from the past, the most common mistake is bringing the past into something new, its hard to forget an old routine when its all you've known for so long like as for me being in the same relationship for the past 4 years I don't know anything else I miss having certain things but i'm no where near ready to try being with someone else, being alone is whats best for me i'm loving myself and my personal space so as of now my love life is nonexistent, dating is scary and awkward, I'm just not ready. Emotionally i'm checked out and doing me. The spring is best for fresh new starts not even with love but all aspects of your life!

Do something for you!

Make you and God your best friends God is pretty amazing and anything you feel like you cant deal with depend on him he'll take care of you, just pray he loves you more than anyone will.

Join a class

Go back to school and try something you've always thought about

join a gym

go for walks and enjoy the beauty of life around you

life tends to pass ALOT easier when you do it with a smile

get  to know yourself, love you no one else can make you happy and I cant stress that enough don't depend on anyone to make you happy learn to be independent for yourself, nothing should come between you and your happiness don't let anyone hold you back and tell you, you cant. cause you can!

From personal experience people are always gonna talk and its not because your doing wrong, its because they have nothing better going on in their lives so all they know how to do is gossip, in some sick way putting someone else down makes them feel better ,but don't worry about those losers. Just do you! Fake people are among us all the time and the worst is when its the people closest to you, but take that as a lesson learned forgive and keep it pushing with a smile on your face, kill them with kindness that hate seeing you succeed. 

For once in my life I'm actually doing all the things I want, I've held myself back for so long for all the wrong reasons and really 2012 has been the year where i'm really learning to love myself and do things that make me happy and not really caring what people have to say, I've learned who my true friends are and they know who they are, i trust them with my life and theres not many I can say that about my relationship with my family has been better than ever I'm truly blessed for all I have in life, Im a luck girl and sometimes you just need to stop and realize everything you do have instead of complaining about the things you don't, and again nothing that is going on in my life is possible without God so he deserves all the credit he truly is so amazing. I haven't always been this way it took me a long time to get to where im at, a lot of mistakes and really re-learning who I am. I encourage everyone to really try it. LOVE YOURSELF thats unfuckwithable.

so happy spring:) 

xoxo Ranita

eyes thee lowest.

I dont wanna waste time...

chasing a feeling.

all back.

" We were bigger than anything, remember us at our best."

I never thought in my wildest dreams I would be here, without you, you sheltered me from so much,made me who I am, you made me believe all people lie, cheat, hurt and truly sincerely have no feelings except for there own. You were the type who kicked me when I was down and if it didn't benefit you it didn't matter. While it was happening I was so blinded by your pretty words that I was deteriorating inside slowly but surely. I've learned a lot from you and you've also made me stronger I now know what I want and need, no hard feelings at the end of the day first love, first heartbreak, first meaning, first everything. Now i'm at a crossroad when is it appropriate to let go, when is enough really enough, when does the addiction, need, and want go away. I'm strung out waiting for another high in hopes that you'll call, and this time it will be different or maybe you'll actually get it but,than reality takes its course all that's been around is the downfall the withdraws,the feining for more. I don't think you'll ever truly understand what you were to me and have made me, you filled me with all these lies and fed my heart poison to were even if I finally did get it together, in that part of my life I could never open that part of me ever again. You shut me off, i'm checked out of love, this sickness i've created inside of me, of needing you is taking over every part of me i've drowned myself in endless bottles, and smoked to the point of choking on tears with thoughts of you. The love we shared it was love at one point when it became unhealthy and reckless i couldn't tell you it flashed before my eyes when was it ever about me all i know is what we had was different cause im still here and i know your still there you tell me your not ready but im use to it i don't know what you want from me have you really made me believe that i have to have the bad to have the good i know theres more to it we had love and every aspect of it in a song the introduction was every word i felt and flashed back to a memory 4 out of the 7 were bad "its like screaming and no one can hear you almost feel ashamed that someone can be that important that w/o them you feel like nothing no one will ever understand how much it hurts you feel hopeless but nothing can save you and than when its over than its gone you almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back so you can have the good " i think of all the bad and after all those thing happened there were good is that what we were i know we were young but i know somewhere in there you loved me and what we had was real i wanna forgive you for making me feel this anger and animosity towards you it just blows my mind that i can love you so much and be here and to me i feel like you feel as if i was never a factor in your life for the past 4 years as if i was non existent how can someone turn so cold when all i ever did was love and keep loving you i was there from the beginning you forgot i supported all your hopes and dreams that was me who listened to you cry lent you the money gave you the love i was there every step of the way so now if you really wanna act like it was never me i was never there,and if someday we cross paths again and you see me coming do me the favor of turning the other way and not acknowledge me cause surely it will hurt me deeper than it will to you, but I cant stop thinking of you, ever corner i turn i think of you on my walks at the lake i think of you that parking spot that store that restaurant that song that smell that feel that feeling i miss us ill never know what really happen to us they say distance makes the heart grown fonder the proper terminology according to us was more around the basis of out of sight out of mind I miss you stranger cant imagine were you drifted off too…but I want it all back.