Further than I've ever been

Last night I was talking with a very close friend, and she is someone I confide in and I can talk to her about absolutely anything and while we talk we just go from topic to topic, its actually quite amusing. We'll be talking about shopping, than all of sudden its about religion and illuminati...How many of us can really say that besides their family they have someone else close to talk to, someone they really trust and really want whats in your best interest, as time has been progressing I've gone thru the weirdest, most crucial reality checks that have come the slimming down of people in my life has really cute down to my family and a few I can count on one hand, and really everyday i'm realizing thats all I need and at this point all I want.

Basically...I was gonna write about one thing but I got to listening to the rain, and my thoughts went else where, I truly love Seattle there's something soothing and comforting about the pouring of rain on the rooftops and windows.

I have a friend who is going thru somethings with her boyfriend, I should say ex-boyfriend, and with this situation it got me to think and in some weird way has taken a toll on me on realizing how far i've come from that. So lets just say that her ex isnt the best guy and theyve been together for a while and I definitely dont condone the way he is with her, but ive always been there, till lately she would continue to go back after a huge disagreement,repeat the same pattern and the outcome would always come out so terrible always worse than the last time. It got to the point where I didnt wanna hear about it anymore and almost to where I threatened our friendship because of it, but that was wrong of me yeah I was sick and tired of hearing how he did this and that to her and she would cry and I hated seeing her like that. I just didnt wanna be around it, I remembered not to long ago a couple months back I was in that horrible situation, I felt like I had NOBODY I felt abandoned,used, confused, hurt, sad angry, I just didnt know where I was at and if I could pull myself thru and me turning my back on her when she needed me most was wrong to even think because that exact situation happened to me, the one person I trusted with everything basically abandoned me. Now when I look back and I see my friend and I was that girl who had no idea where life was gonna take me, I can tell her that I'm further than i've ever been and I'm so happy, I've never loved myself more. All of this happened to me not to long ago, I thought I wouldnt make it, now I look back and see I did it day by day I became stronger and now no one can take that away from me, yes her situation is terrible one but it made me realize that I was her once , I thought I could never get thru it and now look where im at and how happy I am.

Believe in yourself, trust God will make a way... And ALWAYS, ALWAYS LOVE YOURSELF, cause no one can take that away from you.